Do you ever feel that you are alone, an outcast or unwanted? Well if you don't, I envy you because I am one of those. Everywhere I go or whatever I do, I'm just this guy that you can say at the center of stage of "Mockery". Now how is that possible? Why am a person like me who never did anything wrong to others and just doing my best to study and participate in class feels this way? Is it because I'm so different from the others?
Come to think of it, the reason why I'm making a big deal out of this is because I cannot find someone to share this small problem of mine besides my parents. I mean, I do have friends but most of them doesn't care about how I feel. Well in fact, most of them contribute to the pain that I'm feeling by making fun of the mistakes I committed. Honestly, there is a big change that happen to me in this second semester of this Academic year 2010-11. I became more sensitive, more conscious and more like an outcast trying to fit in this society where I can expect the worse of the worse.
Earlier this day, I was so pissed of my classmates continuously taking about me on how bad I am, in terms of the way I look, the way I speak and the way I participated in class. This keeps on and on, it's like they are repeatedly laughing at me behind my back and by the time I reached the peak of my temper, I'm saying bad comments on them but little did I know someone heard me.
Tears was about to fall in my eyes but that particular person tapped my chest (literally) near my heart and said, "Easy ka lang " or "take it easy" in English. That made me realized that I was wrong. I now understand that there will always people who will make you feel bad but there will be also someone who will care for you whatever or whoever you are because for them you are SPECIAL and that is something to be proud at.
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